Day 3

So this morning we had a guest come over. Sajid’s driver/carpool lady wanted to come over to visit since she had only 2 more weeks of driving him. I liked her, she was really nice. Ma was saying her very wealthy brother had just recently died. She at point told me about how her daughter when she was 16, had become anemic due to heavy, irregular menstrual bleeding aka…menometorrhagia. I was asking why that happened, trying to figure out all the million reasons why heavy bleeding issues even happen. She didn’t really answer it so I was left to just guess. But then I realized that all that stuff I crammed into my head two weeks ago have become a blur. *sigh* I can never retain medical stuff. Could be hypothalamic-pituitary issues, since there was no abnormal ultrasound, but who knows.

Anyway shortly after she came, one of our neighbors, Quail Auntie (I don’t know if her nickname is actually Quail as in the bird, or some random bengali word like kwail? Who knows?) came over with her adorable little toddler and his grandma. She was somehow related to Sajid’s driving lady. Anyway it was pretty enjoyable morning, listening to bengali women talk about life. Yes, I am like an old bengali grandma myself, but with crappy bengali XD.

Driving lady left, and then Lovely auntie (her nickname IS literally Lovely) came over and then the three of them (including Ma) were talking about random stuff. I was like okay, I have errands to run. First off, I had bought a black shirtdress from Uniqlo a month ago exactly, but when I got home I realized it was very very thin and see through (even for a black dress), and I had yet to return it. Today was the last day to return it (thank God I actually put that on my calendar!!). I actually ordered a way better black shirtdress from Mango (was my first time ever ordering clothes online without trying them first) but thankfully, it fits well. And it’s so much better made than the Uniqlo one.

So I went over to Herald Square. I first went to Aldo. On Saturday, when I bought the pretty dreamcatcher necklace, it actually said Buy 2 get 1 free, but I never picked a second item to be free, because I didn’t like what that Aldo had for sale. So I tried to get my second item today. I just showed my receipt and it worked, and I ended up buying this hand chain. I have no idea when I’ll actually wear it, but I have it in stock.


After that I went to Uniqlo to return the shirtdress. Then I went to Forever21, which was pretty interesting…so the store lost a lot of power. There was no AC, they couldn’t use credit cards, and the whole back of the second floor (like the jewelry section) was completely dark. Some lights for flashing, indicating something went awry. Technicians were all over the place too. I had wanted to get cat-eye sunglasses, but I could barely see anything. And they didn’t take cards, so it was a useless venture.

Then I went to the new big H&M (which is like diagonal to the other H&M…). I posted before about an olive satiny blazer I liked. It was $34 before, but it was on sale for 20. I couldn’t find the olive one, which pissed me off, but I thought black was always a safe staple. I also got sunglasses. I wonder if I’ll actually wear them…

Then I went to Payless, where I got very much needed comfy shoes for walking. Flats are really bad for me, and my current comfy shoes are sooooo damn smelly!!!! Even washing them doesn’t get of it. Payless made yearly versions during college days of my fave comfy shoes by Comfort Plus, but they seemed to stop making it, which was annoying because I really needed new shoes! I settled for the champion shoes. Should do the job. I do need sandals though…too hot for closed shoes.

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I made pitstops at JC Penney and Starbucks, and then went my way home. Also, I am soo glad that for once I remembered to take an umbrella, because it was pouringg like hell!

Didn’t really do anything this evening. Spent forever editing pictures. I am a Fotor addict (photo app). Love it. If you see my pics, it’s obvious I’m going through a severe vintage/polaroid wannabe phase.

And then I watched Pitch Perfect, which was awesome!!! They just announced Pitch Percfect 3, which is great…but I gotta see the second one!! But it just got out of theater, so now I have to wait… *bummer*. I had a massive crush on Jesse, he was sooo cool. So cute. Beautiful amazing voice *swoooon*. And he was soo into Beca!!  He was so charming and funny around her *swoooon again*. When she sang the Breakfast Club song at the end, I was like omg sooo romantic!! And then the final kiss. Ugh the feels. It was perfect.

The movie made me wanna pretend doing acapella. Why do I lack such natural abilities why??

Anyways, I need to plan my day for tomorrow and then sleep. Currently listnenting to Coldplay’s latest cd, Ghost Stories. Everyone needs to listen to O and Always in My Head. Hands down, probably their best ever “solemn/mellow song.” Aside from Fix Me. That will always reign #1!

And So It Begins

Ahhh so I’m finally done with school!! Summer is here! I go back August 10th (monday), but I probably should move in August 8th, and have August 9th to mentally prepare for school. After this summer, it goes downhill for the next, oh I don’t know, 50 years?? So from July 13th to August 8th I have 56 days, so need to plan my life wisely.

On Thursday after finishing up, Soumya, Rahima, Dawn, Renee and I went out to eat. We ended up leaving pretty late, like 1030ish, but luckily we found a Thai restaurant called Obao in Hell’s Kitchen that was open til 1 am. The food was good, can never go wrong with Thai food, although I have to say, I’m pretty over it. I’ve had so much of it, and it gets old. But I will never say to going to a Thai place. One thing I liked about this place was they were playing so many songs from the 2000s, especially Avril Lavigne! I was getting soo nostalgic.

So we ate there for awhile, and then we ended up in the middle of Time Square. So this is where the funniest part of the night happened. Revlon has this camera that tapes people and then zones into a group of people with a heart around them , and then takes a snapshot (it’s called Love is On). It was so.damn.hilarious. And it was really really funny when Rahima discovered where the camera was, because then the pictures showed like 20 people staring up at the screen, while Rahima was looking right out to the viewer. Soo creepy! Ah man good times. It was the perfect way to end 1st year.

Friday was just a tiring, sweaty, day of packing and cleaning my dorm. And then moving everything back home. Not so fun.

Yesterday I met up with Madeeha, Samira, and Shah Nawaz at Martha’s. It was a spontaneous meetup, but it magically worked out for once! It’s always great catching up with those four! Talked about sisters’ marriages, marriage, more marriage, travel, marriage, and medical school, oh and marriage. What else is knew?  Samira has officially created the hashtag #fab4. This makes me wanna name all my friend groups XD

I also made a pit stop at Aldo and got this dream catcher necklace. I loved that it was long and very beautiful. I saw it a few weeks ago, and could not get over it, so I caved. I like the dream catcher is also not a tiny thing.


So plans for todayy…I need to clean up this ridiculous mess that is my room. I have no idea how I’m going to clean this up!



And then later tonight, going to Muntaha’s for a partay. And of course, I cannot go to sleep without watching the Game of Thrones finale!!! I’m praying for dragons dragons dragonss.

Currently listening to Hilary Duff’s new cd!!! I was so excited to hear her first song in years!!! I think “Sparks” is really fun song. It made me want to listen to her old songs, like “So Yesterday” and “Come Clean.” Come Clean was the song of my pre-teenhood (Avril Lavgine’s song “Nobody’s Home” was the emo song of middle school days). I feel so ancient when I listen to those old songs. And I’m liking her new album. They’re fun songs for the summer.

So long Mad Men

So last night was the Mad Men finale. I don’t really know what to think about it. Mad Men is a very subtle show, so nothing huge or extraordinary happens. It’s a show about the fine details, so I’m not used to that. I want big outrageously happy endings. I wanted Don to come home, see all the characters get together, reminisce about the past, Don having heart to hearts with Betty and his kids. A lot of mush. But that never ever happens on Mad Men so I have to change the way I see things.

I thought everyone’s storylines wrapped nicely, besides Don’s. Peggy and Pete had just the right kind of goodbye. Peggy and Pete. Wow if you watch the first episodes, their dynamic was so different. Pete was a total douchebaggg. Thankfully, recently he seemed to have changed and wanted to be something else. He went from thinking Peggy was a just a stupid girl he could step all over (and toy with), to someone he really looked up to. That’s pretty amazing.

“Someday people are going to brag that they worked with you”

“God…I don’t know what to say.”

“I wouldn’t know. No one’s ever said it to me.”

Peggy, she went from being Don’s secretary, constantly being trampled by the men of Sterling Cooper, to a top creative director. That’s very inspirational. She also found someone to be with finally, Stan. Didn’t really picture them together. Thought they were better off as friends, and I thought it came sort of left field, but the telephone conversation when Stan just transitioned from regular Stan to pouring-out-my-love-for-you Stan was pretty romantic actually. Peggy’s reaction was so hilarious because she was soo taken aback by the declaration of love.

“I think how about you came into my life, how you drove me crazy. Now I don’t know what to do with myself, because all I wanna do is be with you”

“….What? What did you just say?”

“I want to be with you. I’m in love with you”


“I love you Peggy”

“…..oh my God. That’s what I thought you said. I-I-I..I don’t know what to say. I can’t breathe..” etc etc

Joan also got the ending she deserved. Her boyfriend didn’t like how she was so driven to work, so he left her. But she took it in stride and started her own company. Joan and Peggy’s meet-up was just right. I also liked how Joan and Roger met one last time. Two former lovers, now they were just two good friends (who share a kid) and were happy for each other.

My favorite character on the show…is Sally. The actress, Kiernan Shipka (aka Jinora on Avatar!) started on the show soo young. She was this cute little kid. And now she’s this teenager. She showed a lot of maturity in the last episode, telling Don what was the best for her brothers after Betty’s death, coming home and helping Bobby make dinner, and God that last scene where she’s cleaning the dishes with her mom at the table, who was smoking away till the end. It was such an ordinary scene. You’d never think that Betty was dying at the time. Life goes on I guess.

That was the last piece of Betty. There was no dramatic death scene or funeral. You just know she will die, which makes it more depressing actually. Her other scene was when Don called her. Ah that was another moment. I always thought they would make such a  good couple, but Don was just so damn terrible. And she’s pretty reserved herself so their marriage was just so bland. Sad that it couldn’t work, but at least they became good friends by the end.

I liked how the episode was called “Person to Person.” Apparently back in the day, when you called someone, the operator would say something like a “I have a request for a person to person for betty francis by don draper.” The two times he called was to Betty and Peggy, the only two women he had a close bond with that wasn’t one of his love affair women. So it was fitting.

SO my main issue…was Don. He went off to California with his fake niece, and then ended up at a hippie retreat with her. He didn’t want to go there but ended up being stranded there. And then he just had this meltdown (which he has had in the past). He was moved by what a man at a group session said, something about…God I didn’t even know what. I guess how he felt unnoticed, or couldn’t understand when people tried to love him. It was very vague maybe because I could not relate to that at all. I wanted to sympathize but I just didn’t really get it. I never ever understood Don really. So he had a crappy childhood. Ok a lot of people do. And we all have those days when we so alone, ignored, isolated, empty. But that doesn’t mean you get to be mean, grumpy, mysterious and neglect your wife and kids. Never ever ok.

I really wanted him to change. I wanted the show to show the change. But nothing new really happened until the last very ending scene. He’s sitting down and his instructor says something about becoming a new person, says om, and then Don repeats , and then he smiled to himself. And then black. And I’m like no freaking away. He says om and all of a sudden he gets the purpose of his life?? Or something?? I don’t know…it’s so vague. More than 40s of years and all of sudden it just clicked. I really wanted more buildup. I wanted him to face his issues while they are happening around him and not at a very distant retreat. 

But that wasn’t the last part. The very last thing was this old 70s coke ad that was well known for its multicultural slant apparently. So basically…it seems like Don was behind this (real) famous ad. Don had always wanted to do an ad for coke so one can extrapolate that Don went back home a new man, and ended up pitching one of greatest ads of all time.

I will say that despite my overall irritation with Don and that last hippie thing that made him all of a sudden realize stuff, the ad’s placement was a huge sign of hope for his character. It signaled renewal. Like a phoenix rising out of the ashes. So I’d like to that Don went back a different, better person. Someone who will take his work seriously and not run away from his problems. Someone who will be there for his loved ones when they need him. Knowing who he was for the past 7 seasons, that’s very inspirational. It’s actually motivating me to work harder for whatever I want to do in life, who I want to become.

Well I should go back to work. I have two patient interviews tomorrow so need to review the usual round of questions.

Currently listening to When You Give Your Heart by Laura Veirs. It’s one of those cute indie songs that make me happy.

Ahh I just took a shower and now I’m in my room with a cool afternoon breeze. I love hearing kids in the park. Makes being inside (ironically) more bearable. Although I wish I could be out and not do work. Having the right music on is also key. Alexandre Desplat doesn’t disappoint with his calm piano music (Coco Avant Chanel soundtrack). I just want summer vacation to be here. I counted that I have 54 free days and I wanna make sure each day counts. Because after this summer, I’ll never be able to catch a break until I’m like….60.

Anyway, I realized I totally lied about this past week. I did so some extra stuff. Monday was a memorial service to the families of our donor bodies.  I really loved the part when the family members spoke about their passed loved ones. I was tearing up uncontrollably, and was just hoping the nose would not get very runny! It was strange hearing about these people who led their lives, and now they were gone, and we students have a totally different experience with them. One girl, who was I think like a 4th year at school, opened saying (along the lines of this) “my grandmother was a mother, an aunt, a friend, a sister…but she was born to be a grandmother” (blow to the heart). Another pair of old siblings read poems their mother wrote (some about dying actually), and spoke of the all her years filled with loving others. And the first speaker, spoke of her aunt who was a neuropharmacologist and was also a hippie back in the day, but also was a schizophrenic and dealt with substance abuse issues. It was a poignant description of someone who was so very missed by her family.

We had a couple singers. One was alright, but we could barely here her with all this weird speaker noise. And I later learned she was hired…Then Soumya sang Hallelujah (Shrek version), which was, not surprisingly, amazingg. It was so peaceful and beautiful.

Tuesday afternoon, I had really wanted to go see the cherry blossoms again. I had never seen them in full pink bloom in the main area. On my birthday, they just started blooming, so they were still pretty bare. So I went after anatomy lab. I really should have given myself more time to get there. In my head, it seems like it’ll take 20 minutes. Ended unlike 35. But I wanted to get back by 6 for Coffeehouse, so I could only stay at the park for like 15 minutes. To my disappointment, the trees were completely green. All the pink had fallen =(. There’s always next year I suppose…

Pink or not pink, it was so nice to just be there. So peaceful and serene. They had Japanese peonies out, which were beautiful. I wish I could’ve hung out more, but wanted to get back to school for Coffeehouse.

Coffeehouse is when we get served cake and coffee and we just hang, talk, play board games set out. It was the first one that was outside in awhile so that was nice. We stayed out for hours…and then Rahima and Soumya tell me they are finally going to see the Parenthood series finale. I already saw it a few months ago, but I was totally down for re-watching it, because God that show is beautiful. If you want to watch a show that’s about the real world, day to day lives of ordinary people (no sexy spies or thrillers or affiars) this is the show for you. I really should do a post about the show. I need to analyze my love for all the characters. But anyway, we watched it, we shed many tears, and called it a late night (think it was like almost 3 o’ clock?).

The next day I believe, I got back to work.

Yesterday we thankfully did not have POPs in the afternoon (when we do our cases for like 2 hours–but we never actually do anything). So after lecture on the way home, I went to Uniqlo because they had a black shirtdress that I really wanted to get. Also got white skinny jeans. The material is pretty thin, even for a black dress, but the lighting in the fitting room is pretty dim. When I got home, I saw that it was very see through in a well lit area so I’m not so sure about keeping it. My hijab can cover the see through bra area…but I can’t tell if the rest of my body is visible too…I did find a thicker black shirtdress at Mango for like the same price, so I ordered that online. I hope it actually fits. I spent like an hour measuring myself and hoping I’m getting the right size. I’ll be pissed if it’s not! Ps I never order clothes online without having tried them, so it’s a first.

I also tried the mini frap at Starbucks. Now that was a very handy frap size. They should totally just continue it.

Nothing else was new for this week. I just studied or was wrapping up television shows that are ending for the season. Arrow’s was ok, thought the ending could have been better. Good Wife was ok too. Once Upon a Time’s I really enjoyed! For once. Since season 1, the show has lost its mystery and just became cutesy, but from the episode about Cruella Deville, it’s been very interesting.

So Once Upon a Time has never had a truly evil character. All villains have been shown to have a vulnerable, human side. They were just mistreated some point in their life. But Cruella…that girl was actually…evil!! Like pure evil! The whole episode you think she’s this innocent girl who is locked up by her evil mom who killed her father. Turns out…Cruella killed her father and stepfathers. Her mother just had no idea what to do with her! Cruella liked…to kill. It reminded me of Cathy from East of Eden. Just pure evil from childhood. I wonder if this actually happens in real life…or it’s just fiction. I’ve always believed kids to be innocent, even if they do bad stuff, they don’t really realize. But kids who actually know what they’re doing…? Anyway, thought that episode was cool and the finale was really cool. Hope next season keeps this up.

My favorite though, which I saw yesterday, was SHIELD’s!! Oh. My. God. It was CRAZY. I was screaming every other minute. I haven’t watched something so suspenseful in I don’t know how long. I think every character was about to die in each scene. It was just 2 hours of freakin brilliance. Gah the fight scene, they are so badass. Can’t wait for what season 3 brings.

There’s one thing that disturbs me on SHIELD. It’s Ward…The actor is so freaking HOT. But his character has become such a psychopath I hate him. Yet I find him so damn attractive. UGH. I hate myself. At least the actor is a nice guy. I’ll just think that.

And lastly, I saw the penultimate episode of Mad Men. Damn, right before the end, they hit you so hard. Betty has lung cancer. And she’s months away from dying. I did not see that coming. I…ugh, Betty was one of my favorite characters. Not that she’s like an amazing person, but I found her interesting. And she’s just gorgeous as hell…I was being delusional and hoping the finale would show the characters in the future, now, old people. But now Betty cannot be part of that reality. And it was so heartbreaking seeing Francis and Sally be torn up by the news. Especially Sally, she needs her mother!! She’s just like what 14 15? It’s just so sad. Betty wasn’t ever going to win mom of the year award, and her life with Don was just a mess, and she just had these weird things about her. But she’s definitely become more headstrong since her first days where she played the subservient, quiet beautiful wife. She’s more than that now. And that’s how she’s taking all this in very calmy. She’s content with herself.

Sally I always worried about you, because you marched to the beat of your own drum. But now I know that’s good. I know your life will be an adventure.

I love you. Mom.

The adventure part kills me. The thought of going through life without having your parents there to see it with you just breaks my heart. *sigh*

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Well the series finale is tomorrow. Today I watched the one episode of Mad Men that I completely missed somehow (the only one where Joan and Roger were actually together, how the hell did I miss that?). It was an episode of season 1, so it was interesting to contrast the show then and now. It’s so different. The characters have changed, I’d say for the better. Except for Don himself. Damn, that guy. He’s such an engima. He always had this dark attitude that has somewhat subsided. But he could be better. I can’t stand it when he’s with his women. I wonder how he’ll take Betty’s news.

Well this post pretty much proved I have no life but to study and watch television. Well after tomorrow, there’s nothing except the handful of GoT episodes. Today I went back in time and did GI embryology. What fun. Embryology is very interesting, but a pain to learn because you cannot get that stuff down without lots of videos and animations. Tomorrow, my goal is to somehow, miraculously, finish up all the GI stuff completely (we ended that like 3 weeks ago and I’m so behind!!). But I need to get through it somehow. We started reproductive this week, and it’ll end in 2 weeks, then right after we have finals.